宝贵的"探险"

我记得跟朋友说过

我从不后悔

把心放在感情“身上”

所以只要我想要进入感情的“洞穴”

进去之后

既不退缩

也不会轻易放弃

而即使放弃

也是洞穴的忽然“坍塌”….

“感情”洞穴的探险

常常会遇到挑战“心”的战斗

这不是外表受到的伤的痛

如果那痛是来自心底发出来的痛

那种痛不是一两天就会好的

我曾经伤得很深

所以我知道

那时的我

即便大力的咬自己的手腕

即便牙齿印久久刻印在粗糙的皮肤

也无法感觉到手腕的痛

因为那种“外痛”

根本比不上那出自心底的“内痛”

但是

即使波折重重

偶尔的荆棘

也会全力以赴

拼到最后

完成每一个探险

即使是一个人

单独地

伤痕累累地

不知一个人哭了多少次

也没关系

因为每一次的“探险”

都有不同的体验和教训

也觉不会从此而为那一次的探险而后悔

那毕竟是难得宝贵的经验

美好和开心的

我会留着

让下一次的“探险”更加精彩

不好和伤心的

我会随着时间淡忘去

或者当作教训

不让下一次的“探险”

踏上同一个错误

上一次的“探险”

让我学习了不少

也让我坚强了许多

真的好多

感觉让我变了一个人似的

而现在经历的“探险”

我要把经验分享给她

让她变得更坚强

如果朋友问我

应该不应该“探险”

我会告诉他们

应该不应该由你决定

我不能做主

但是如果你选择“探险”后

就应全力以赴

感受“探险”的每一刻

因为每一次的“探险”

都会学习很多

好多

好多…..

我也爱你

最近都在 读朋友的部落格

心理有所感触

记得我在中五后曾答应自己

要把自己的生活

自十八岁起一一记录下来

但是到现在无法实现

大学预备班比想象中繁忙了许多

在这期间也成长了不少

在这里遇见了新的朋友

新的同伴

还有新的喜欢的对象

最近都一直都在阅读她的部落格

最近她都有写到我

即使读过了一遍

隔天还是有那个冲动想要一直在重复地读

最近的她

再为我而烦恼

因为我那八年的承诺而苦思

每个人的原则都不一

我在中五时就已定下了自己

在大学毕业前不会有女朋友

到现在我还没打破那原则

但是我跟她的感觉、

举止、

和那一直被取笑的暧昧、

根本就是男女朋友

只是我一直不敢打破自己那已定下的原则

我深怕自己无法达到自己所定下的目标

深怕自己会被知道我的原则的朋友嘲笑

也深怕妈妈会令我失望

久久不敢接受这感情

我

觉得我不配得到你的爱

你在部落格里已表明你的真心

但我一直不敢接受

就因为那自己愚蠢的八年约定

要你等我

也浪费你能遇到更好的男生的青春

浪费了你能被爱的机会

错失那真正刻苦铭心的爱情

我让你没有安全感

是我的错

我让你没能安下心

是我的不对

我让你痴痴的等待

是我的幼稚的思想

我，

觉得我不配得到你的爱

我想我不应该许下

让你担忧、烦恼的承诺

我现在不能答应你太多

我怕太多的承诺

会变成最后的责任

而我是个责任心满强的男生

我不要用责任的心爱你

我要我用爱你的心去爱那只得被爱的你

其实

我没告诉你的是

那八年

其实是需要等我最长的时间

那就像是另一个人生中的目标

一个让我准备自己

变得让你更值得爱的人

接下来的五年

我会在大学专心我的学业

工作了半或一年

会真正想你表白我的真心

然后一面奋斗事业与爱情

希望缘分不会疏远彼此

而是让我们拉得更近

我不知你有没有机会看到这些

但是

这句话我收在心里已好久

我很想告诉你

其实我一直一直

都想告诉你

“我也爱你....”

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I think I learn a lot when I imagine myself in poeple's shoes...

I realized some of my friends from other races felt they were forgotten or discrimminated when they were sitting in a group of Chinese who were talking Mandarin in front of them. I could understand the feeeling, if I were to sit among a group of Indians who started talking in Tamil with each other.

I realized why we could not control the language we use when we chat with our friends. Don't we know there's a friend who do not know the language we are speaking? But why are we still doing that?

"Maybe we will feel awkward when we speak in English with our friends from the same race" I thought. We tend to speak our mother tongue in front of our friends from other race, unknowingly hurting them.

I imagined myself if I were in their shoes, I could feel the pain and the loneliness. It's like you are standing in a crowded street where noises surrounded you. You thought that you could mix with them. But you aren't. You are not part of them. And you wish you could just leave that place.

I'm sorry to the friends from other races for my selfish attitude which might hurt you unknowingly. I know we could change our language we used so that you can enter our circle and mix with us. But sometimes we might just get used to our mother tongue and did not realize. I know you felt you are an outlier because you couldn't understand the language. I truly understand...

New blog

http://lifeaboutstory.blogspot.com/

Days after spm

It was long enough not having any post here
spm was long
but it had just went over
the end of spm was kinda sad
it signitifies our five years edu in the secondary school
it signitifies the meeting of friends during the five long years
it signitifies the new environment of college and universiti
it also signitifies our age had added another 5!!!

but it wont stop
the time is said to be heartless
it waits for no one
but it wont stop me from going on
i will continue my life
and when i turning 18
im going to write down everything happened in my life everyday
its a way of remembering my adult days

days after spm
going to be harder
i know
but i think at the mean time
i wold start a new blog writing stories
please share with me
and i will upload at least one every two weeks
and this blog i hope other people could read together

Let:
A=1 B=2 C=3 D=4 E=5 F=6 G=7 H=8 I=9 J=10
K=11 L=12 M=13 N=14 O=15 P=16 Q=17 R=18
S=19 T=20 U=21 V=22 W=23 X=24 Y=25 Z=26

Some of u might know this:

LUCK = 12+21+3+11
= 47% (NEVER TRY YOUR LUCK!!)

LOVE = 12+15+22+5
= 55% (YOU DON'T HOPE SO MUCH FROM IT....)

MONEY = 13+15+14+5+25
= 72% (YOU CAN'T LIVE ALMOST WITHOUT $$$$$$!!!)

LEADERSHIP = 12+5+1+4+5+17+19+8+9+15
= 95% (YOU CAN SURVIVE WITH IT)

KNOWLEDGE = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5
= 96% (THAT'S WHY WE NEED TO STUDY)

HARDWORK = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11
= 98% ("NO WORK NO PAY"....)

ATTITUDE = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5
= 100%!!!
(SO YOU MUST CHANGE THIS IN ODER TO MAKE EVERYTHING PERFECT!!!)



However some people might say they want to make things 101%, this is it:

LOVE OF GOD = 12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4
= 101%
(WOW!! YOU CAN MAKES THING MORE PERFECT WITH IT!!!)




But if someone ask you to makes things 103%, you know what he means......

BULLSHIT = 2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20
= 103%!!!!!
(SO JUST DO THIS YOU WILL WIN EVERYTIME AND EVERYTHING!!! TRY THIS!!!)

^^

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人


请放手


好让别人有机会爱她


如果你爱的人放弃了你


请放开自己


好让自己有机会爱别人





有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的


有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的


人生中有许多种


但别让自己为一种伤害





有些缘分是注定要失去的


有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的


爱一个人不一定要拥有


拥有一个人就一定要好好的爱她


不能继续拥有她


至少你们曾经拥有





男人哭了是因为他真的爱了


女人哭了是因为她真得放弃了





如果真诚是一种伤害


我选择谎言


如果谎言是一种伤害


我选择沉默


如果沉默是一种伤害


我选择离开




如果失去是苦


你怕不怕付出?


如果迷乱是苦


你会不会选择结束?


如果追求是苦


你会不会选择执迷不悟?


如果分离是苦


你要向谁倾诉?




好多事情都是后来才看得清楚


好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦.....